A New Year To Come..

Unforgettable Names..

No matter how much days spent and to spend in that place am workin in.. i would never forget those names.. Eman we Donia we Abeer.. those were my first and true friends at work.. i would never forget them..

i missed abeer's jokes and laughin all the time.. and she tought me how to be cool and calmy.. as long as am doin my part..

an i missed Donia's company..we were togeather most of our times except workin.. she is one of the kindest and most decent persons i've ever met.. she tought me how to be hounst while workin.. she tought me how to let my feelings go..and never block them as long as they are goin in the right direction..
Donia and Abeer have not contributed in my last year that much coz they have left the company.. but they left beautiful things inside that could not be forgotten..

Can not descirbe how much i missed that sweet, sensitive, gentle Girl ..Eman.. although she left at the middle of the last year.. but she will never know or imagine how things could be completly different if she was still around with me.. As for me She was like safety to me.. in that place.. bgd..and now that thing is gone.. el7amdulelah anyway ..

Nada..although it was only one year.. but without knowin or realizin.. she became the closest to me.. i dun know how or when.. i can never forget how ppl have always said how much we are alike.. and i could never stop smiling or even laughin everytime i remember the way we used to talk .. so funny.. so fast.. and always mentioning ppl names in the middle of our talk in a random, unorganized and hysterical manner :D .. She helped me alot.. She really did.. a7'erha :) from about month ago.. she did me a great help when i needed it SO BAD.. she put me again on the right track.. She tought me alot.. and gave me alot.. i wish i could see her everyday as i used to.. that would be much better.. that would be a great help.. she is one of the best gifts i've ever got from God.. :) she really is..

Doaa.. My lovely friend.. althought we were not friends aslan untill from about one passed year.. but i guess i've been missin alot.. she tought me alot of things and showed me alot un-intentionally .. being with her.. makes me feel so comfortable.. makes me sure that i could say whatever i wanna say whenever i wanna say.. and no way that she could get me wrong.. when am with her.. it is like bein free of mind constraints.. i can set with her silent.. she would not mind.. i can set with her without stop talkin.. she also would not mind.. i can set with her sayin bla bla bla.. she would never stop me..she even could bla bla bla with me.. :) i can set with her talkin only about myself for 2 hours.. and she would do nothin but hearin.. :) she makes me laugh too much also.. i guess that when me and her are with each other and laughin. we could be laughin for a whole day without stopping : ) am sure about that..
i love her too much.. and am sure she loves me back so.. those past 4 or 5 months she helped me alot.. i was and still :) in a great mind confusion.. she is always there for me.. sometimes she makes it hard on me.. ) but am sure she is doin that for my own sake..no more..
If it wasn for God's help and you.. those last 6 months.. i dun think that i could be hangin on in that place..
somethin suddenly passed my mind to tell... from about two weeks or alittle more.. she was not ok so that she could come to work that day.. and i can not forget myself.. bein worried about her after callin her more than three times and her Mob. was Off.. my day got upside down.. i did not wanna work or do anythin untill i get to know where is she? is she ok? is she gonna come to work..? and finally. . when she called me and told me that she is not feelin well.. and she is not gonna come.. i really did not find the reason for seein me cryin that day.. but i just could not help it..and saw my self silly and actin childishly.. but i was goin to miss her.. ALOT..
i really wanna thank her for bein part of my life .. i wish that she is feelin the same back .. and am also wishin to be here for her whenever and wherever she wants me to be ..Inshaallah :)

In anyone's life .. we can find different types of personalities to meet, influence and b influenced from..
sometimes, ppl get into your life.. affect you +vely..and just leave you one day.. with a good memory.. or a good lessons carved in mind..regardless of the person who gave you the good lesson itself..
others get into your life and affect you -vely.. and leave you one day.. with a bad memory.. or hard experience also could be craved in mind .. and you just find yourself can not remember anythin about that person him/herself .. but a bad memory or experience..
Others get into your life.. and affect you +vely.. but not like the others above.. you could find those ppl to be a real values in your life.. like marks or symbols.. could not be forgotton..neither thier names nor thier characters or thier additions to your life from lessons to experiences to good memories... you're just findin them there in your mind and heart constantly and un-intentionally :)

posted by Sue... @ 4:19 PM 0 comments

Old Friends..

It's been a whole 15 years.. i just can not recall.. how did they just pass ..what matter is that we are all happy to be with each other still.. and hoping everyday this friendship will last forever ..

Dina M. my dearest.. although we are not seein each other that much.. but am sure that i would never ever never have a person that close to my heart and sole.. nothin to say more than she is at the top of my best friends.. i think i could stand settin with for three days without sayin A Word :) we will be just happy to be with each other.. actually..sometimes it is much better to stay silent while being with her..
I think that some times ppl could be wishing everyday for the half of thier lifes or perhaps more.. and pray to God so that they could find true friendship.. i believe and am sure that what i believe in is 99.9% right :) Am really gifted from God to find the true friendship with Dina.. and when i just think about it deeply.. i realize that our relationship is also blessed.. coz besides bein true friends.. we found also our way to love each other Fe ELLAH .. i dun know about myself.. but her company reminds me of God always.. and how to be good to God.. i really love her as a real sister .. and wish that we set side by side fel Janah Inshaallah .. Still Got Lots of things to say about Dina.. .. :) thank you for bein part of mylife and lettin me b part of ur's

Nada My dearest :) you are like my guide.. you ve been always playin that role in my life.. i missed talkin to you so much..so so much.. but i guess that you are still playin the same role.. am always doin things and decide things after thinkin about what you could be sayin to me reagrdin it.. that is true.. coz you've been always guidin me to the right ..
From about 3 years.. One of the Happiest day in mylife.. was your weddin day.. i would never ever forget that day.. may b coz you were the first one from the 4 of us to see you in that Beautiful situation.. anyway.. every moment in that period starting from preparin to your weddin are unforgetable to me :) Miss you so much..

Dina S. My dearest.. nothin to say but.. I miss you more than you could ever know.. and i hope that we could b seein each other much more..

those three characters are like constants in my life.. i can say that they are like my second family.. and that no matter happened to me.. they will be there for me.. always.. and at the time i could feel that my life could be runnin out of friends.. there will be the three of them .. untill the end of my time..
:)
last year the distance has became much longer among the three of us physically, coz of the circumstances.. but am sure that it will end up togeather inshaallah ..

posted by Sue... @ 3:54 PM 0 comments

First Time to Write about..

That would be the first time to write about a passed year from my life.. and talk about it.. the last years.. was full of events.. it could not be that improtant to many .. but as for me.. major changes happened.. lots of ppl came.. and lots of them gone.. and so as in me.. lots of things have been added and lots have been gone also..
At the beginning of the last year.. lots of my friends at work left the company to another one.. and that was bad.. coz our group has got smaller and smaller.. besides that ppl who'd gone was so important to me.. and left an empty space .. everyone of them had somethin special.. and which we all missed it so much..
Rest of the past year came with more frineds to lose from the working environment which i was and still workin in.. but also lots of happy things happened to me durin.. thanx God..
I would never forget that day.. my last Birth Day.. when they made me a Birth day surprise party.. and got me a sweeeet present.. and got me a cake.. i just love those ppl.. i really love them..
and as i believe .. and always say.. that lots of ppl come and go into our lifes but just few of them come and go and we are never ever been the same.. they left somethin inside me.. somethin marvelous.. and everyone of 'em un-intentionly has tought me somethin. so am happy to get to know such characters and let them influence my life in a way or another..
it came to my mind to devide ppl and events into groups..
So the first Group would be the Girls Group .. .. But when am really wanna talk about my girl friends in my life as a whole ... i can not start talkin about anyone ..but my truly, sweet, lovely three friends .. Dina we Nada we Dina..

posted by Sue... @ 3:09 PM 0 comments

Start digging out ..

It is been a very long time to get the chance to post any.. today.. i felt like i wanna do that.. i guess that i got lots inside to say about lots of ppl, days and events happened to me during the last year.. as tomorrow would be the first day in my 25th Year... am gonna b 25 :) but still can not feel the change.. they are all the same to me.. i dun know why.. but 25 like 24 like 20.. this is not a bad thin to feel i guess.. it might b even better..
i just felt like i wanna talk about things happened to me.. and wanted them to be documented.. so i would never forget them.. aslan..some of them are unforgettable.. but i'd prefer to memorize them too..
So now am just gonna start diggin out... ...

posted by Sue... @ 2:44 PM 0 comments